Registration Day, Tomorrow!

Tomorrow is a registration day... and Im not excited at all... because I just hate leaving my home.... cause... Imma stay at home person... I love staying at home... just wasting my time at home... watching Television... surfing the internet.. and do all the crazy stupid stuff... well..using my teenagers time wisely... YOLO! right? ahhahaha... 

Ive to register alone.. cause my mom are busy with her baking stuff... while my dad busy working... Luckily There's azim(my 11th year old brother) That can accompanied me to registration day! Ive to drive there... hopefully nothing happen... and Ive to wake up early tomorrow to avoid jam traffic... hope that Im Not Stuck In jam traffic and can arrive there in time... 

Everyone is busy with their own stuff... so I should be independent and not keep hanging on someone... and stay cool... I know that I can do it!

I am an independent girl...strong and can face whatever came towards me fiercely... cause there's no one will help me.. unless myself...

Sup!

Its Been 3 Days Im Not Updating My Blog.. Due To Helping My Mom With Her Business... Well! Im A Good Daughter And I Know It... Ahahahhaah.... Just Helping Her Most Of This Week!... Btw She's A Baker.. She Made A Wedding Gift For Wedding Ceremony Of Course... I Dont  Know What Am I Gonna Write Today! I Felt Like Wanna Sleep Whole Day Today! Well... I Think I Should!

Haaa... Last Wednesday I Whatssapp-ing Robin Garcia My Best Friend... I Finally.. Told Him Bout My Result... And He Said.. That I Shouldnt Gave Up! Then I Told Him That I Was Cried For 3 Days...He Asked Me.. For What Reason I Cried 3 Days In A Row... It Just Doesnt Made Sense For A Girl Like Me!.. IKR? Seriously? I Forgot The Reason Why Am I Crying... I Think I Should Just Forget About It And Move On!

Sometimes You Have To Forget The Past And Keep Moving Forward... But Just Remember What Builds You Today!

Can Someone Teach Me How To Park Car?

Well... Its Been 7 Months Since I Got My Driving License... But I Still Dont Know How To Park Car Very Well... But I Can Drive.. And My Driving Skills Are Getting Better...Thats What My Mom Said Just Now... 

The Story Began When Im Accompanied My Mom To Wholesale Market... And I Park The Car... Because The Parking Lot Are Empty... So I Can Park It Easily... And Without Thinking That I Would Hit Other People Car... Erm... Please Teach Me, Someone?

After That We Went To Night Market... The Night Market Are So Packed With People... And Car Also.. So.. I Panicked For Like Half An Hour... Cause It Is On Street Car Parking...Plus Im Not Good At Parking Car Reversely... I Just Know How To Park Car From Front.. Which Is Off Street Parking....Not Reversely... I Hope You Know What I Mean...Because Ive The Problem That Does Not Know The direction Whether Left Or Right While Driving... Actually.. Most Of Time.. I Dont Know Which One Is The Right Or The Left One...

My Mom Are So Mad At Me... And Now She's  A Little Bit Curious How The Hell I Passed My Driving Test Without Repeating? ... Well.. Actually.. Before I Took The Test I Memorize Ways How To Park The Car... Plus Practicing A Little Bit... Well... Practice Makes Perfect Right? Aahahaah... My Mom Asked Me To Learn How To Park Car From My Dad... Well.. I Think I Should Learn And Practice It.. Since My Mom Said So... Actually... Its For Her.. Cause Im Her Driver Right Now....Because She Doesnt Know How To Drive Car... Ahah! Even Bike She Doesnt Know How To Ride.. ahahha... Poor Her!

Its Easy To Learn Something If We Worked Hard For It... But Sometimes If We Worked So Hard.. But We Not Get What We Want For... Please! Dont Be Sad But Happy For It! Because Maybe He (Allah) Has Something Good For Us! So.. Stay Positive As Much As You Can...And Learn Something New... And Gain As Much Knowledge As You Can!

Meeting The Failure People!

Just Got Back From METEORA CAFE at Subang Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia. It Was A Nice Cafe With A Nice Food! Actually.. My Father's Boss Invited Us To Eat There....Because He Owned The Cafe... Ok! Back To The Main Story...I Cant Sleep Well Last Night Due To Stomach Ache.... I Tried To Sleep.. But I Just Cant.. Till 3 a.m. Then... I Decided Taking Paracetamol... My Pain Reduced After Im Taking That Drugs... ahahahha...

My Mom Wake Me Up  At 7 a.m.... Just To Go To The KANGEN CHAMPION SEMINAR.....At Tabung Haji Hotel At Kelana Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia... Argh! I Really Dont Want To Go... But I Cant.. I Have Too... Because She Has Registered My Name... Mum! Seriously? I Sleep At 3 a.m... And Now I Have To Accompanied You To The Seminar That I Felt Not Worth For Me... At Least? 

Then Ive Too.. Poor Her... She Already Paid For The Seminar... So.. My Dad Send Us.. Because My Mom Doesnt Felt Secured If Im Driving... Actually... My Whole Family Said That... They Said That I Drove In Reflective... Well... Ahahahha.... 

As Arrived There We Were Having Breakfast First... And Ice Breaking... There Are So Many Old People.. ahhahah.... Actually... The Seminar Is About People Who Had Gone Through So Many Failures... While Promoting This KANGEN WATER... They Work Hard For Their Families... Most Of Them Are A Family Leader... They Carry And Assume The Responsibilities As The Important And Serious Matters In Their Life...

They Said Its Not Easy Too Success... And Its Also Not Easy Too Fail... They Shared So Many Inspiring Quotes To Me... Till I Cried A Little Bit.. Cause I Know What It Feels Like When We Facing A Failure... I Just Fail My Studies... But There Are Some Of Them Are Fail In Relationship, Fail In Financial, And There Are Some Of Them Fail In Both... I Felt Like They Inspired Me... I Think I Should Thank Them..

 Now I Realized That Failure Are The Opportunity To Everything... We Fail Maybe Once... Or Maybe More... But Actually... We are Not A Failure But A Successful People That Are Curious In Making More Than One Decision.... And Sometimes We Forget About The Effect Of The Decision That We Are Making

A Lisztomania!

I Love Listening To Music... Because It Will Made Me Happy And The Best Solution To Any Kinds Of Problems... Plus Its Help Me Improving My English Skills In Every Aspect.. Especially My Talking Skills... I Love Discovering New Talented People On Youtube.. Especially The Singer... I Can Spend A Lot Of Time On Youtube Till I Found A Good One.. Ahahahah.. I Know Its Crazy, Huh? 

Ok! Ive Shared The Playlist That Ive Made Which Contain 60 Songs... But There Are Some Other Songs That Im Not Sharing With You Guys.... Because I Was Too Lazy To Search For It.. Btw.. There Are Some Of Artists That You Guys May Not Know Their Existence...I Thought So.. Hope You Enjoy It! If Some Of You Guys Wanna Shares About Your Favorite Artists That I May Not Know... You May Put In The Comment Section.. Dont Worry I Will Check And Subscribe Them....Or.. Maybe.. If Some Of You Guys Have A Videos On Youtube That You Wanna Shared...You Can Shared It With Me... And Comment In Section Below.

Behind Every Favourite Songs Have Untold Stories... Whether A Good Or A Bad Story... And It Will Became A Memory That We Will Never Forget About.

A Week Before Me And My Dad Birthday!

I Just Whatssapp-ing My Dad This Afternoon... I Apologize To My Dad Because My Mom Told Me To Do So... I Said That I Will Try My Best For The Next Semester And Improve My Result... I Will Try... At Least For Both Of Them.... But... My Mom Said If I Cant Do It Anymore... Its Became My Choice To Do Whatever I Want After This... But Seriously.. I Want To Continue Studies... But I Cant Do It Just Because One Subject/Course... I Thought That Was Ridiculous... But.. What Can I Do?...It Was My Weakness... I Dont Know What Ive Been Doing Till Math Hates Me So.... Much! Actually Im The One Who Hate Them... I Will Try To Made Them Happy And Moving Forward... Maybe There Is Something Behind All Of This... I Guess So....

Well.. My Relationship With My Father Kinda Ok! But We Talk Less... And I Just Dont Like It.. Because I Was A Child Who Was Closest To My Father... Next Week Is My Father And I Birthdays... We Shared The Same Birthdate... I Think Thats One Of The Reason Why We Were So Closed And Kinda Look Alike... I Just Keep Disappointed Him... I Dont Care About What I Will Get On My Birthday... What I Need Now Is.. Wisdom.. Thats All I Need Right Now.. But.. Seriously? How Can I Fail The Final As I Always Get The Best Result In Quizzes? Maybe.. Its My Faith.. And I Have To Accept It... After I Go Back To My College I Dont Want To Write About How Upset Am I About My 1st Semester Result.. I Want To Open A New Book... And Start Living My Life.. And Accept Have Written For Me... I Know That Im Strong... I Know That I Can Do It! Because I Have A Family And Friends That Keep Supporting Me... I Know That I Guess I Should Be Grateful And Enjoy What Has Been Given To Me... 

Being Thankful Is Good Its Shows How Truly We Love HIM(Allah).

The Worst Week Ever!

Its been 3 days since Ive got my 1st semester result..... and its sucks... I cried the whole day.... I cry as loud as I can...because I know Ive tried the best I could... I cant even sleep that night..and I was over thinking about it! I know Im not supposed to think about it too much... but I just cant.. Cause the reason I continues my studies because of my both parents... I love them and I want to make they proud of me... cause I think that my whole life I just keep disappointing them.......and I just lose my hope to live anymore... I want to be strong.. but I just cant because Im just a normal person that are weak....My mom asked me why am I crying the whole day? and asked me... the reason Im crying.... Its not like she doesnt understand me... but she just want me to get over it... as I said.. I just cant...

And Its even worse when my friends results are better than mine... some of them get dean.... thats the worst of all... and I cry.... and they asked about my result... and I just... "Oh! Its good but.... I failed 1 subject/course which is MAT112.... Blah! Its Business Mathematics.... well you know Maths + Me = Disaster.... " And they were like... "Are you OK? If you're not... let me call you..." and Im just like... "NO! Im OK! Well you know me... Im the coolest person that you've ever seen, right?"

And just now... Ive just got into a fight with my father because I said I dont want to continue my studies in Business.... I want to take Culinary Art.... He was sooooo..... angry and disappointed with me.... because the history repeat itself again when I said I want to quit study..... because after I finished My SPM... Ive got a job... then I resigned because I cant handle my emotions when I get scolded everyday... and my I felt like Ive been hate by my co worker.... because we keep fighting everyday... well obviously.. she's bullying me.. but she cant because Im not the kind of person that you can bully... because back in my High School Im kinda a bully... ahahah.... but not the bad one.. the good one... because Ive been a bad one... when I was in Standard 5 to 6... which is in America called 6th and 7th grade... Im the worst bully ever... I made the whole school not to befriend with her... I know its not good...

Well... back to the topic...My father advice me...but with loud tone.. and it made me cry harder and Im against him... I said I cant do it anymore... but he know I can do it... He trust me... but Im not trusting myself at all...We fight... and at the same time I cry.. keep crying... cause thats all I can do... He want me to continue my studies... and not giving up.. but I dont want...maybe because the way he told me not giving up in a wrong way.. well you know a father when they talked its kinda rough a little bit... then he said... "Well... OK! Just do whatever that goods for you...Youve grown up... so.. do what best for you! but... learning is not easy... it took time.." and he goes to sleep... 

I keep crying... then my mum came to me... she give me strength to face me life... she said that my father is right about everything that he said to me... but he said it in the wrong way... plus Im against him... and Ive should listen to every word he said to me.... My mother said its because the way you study... maybe? And its actually because Ive forget about HIM(Allah)... She asked me to try for the 2nd semester and see how its going and she said.. its not only your father will upst wit you.. but your grandmother and all our family will upset with your decision...Then she shared a story that Ive never know about it.. actually she also had fail in a subject when she was taking Diploma In Computer back then...Ive never know about this story because I always look her as The Perfect Person In Study... she also shared a story about her friends that are not good in studies especially subject that required english... she always fail.. but that not stopping her from getting a success...she keep trying till she become a GM(General Manager)... and thats made me feel confident.. My mum said that Im lucky because Ive feel and know the real meaning of succeed and hard-work...

Well... I hope that I will become successful in my life and keep studying... I hope I can continue my studies till Phd.